happy n sad

today, i and my fren did something la,
we went kacau someone,
and we only drink some vokda and beer only,
and bcoz of that, we gone high!!

i don noe la, maybe bcoz both of us are too emo.

04/12/2009 - 1.31am

loneliness feeling is alway in my mind...

why i alway getting this feeling all the time???

am i thinking too much?

am i really idiot to keep the feeling in my mind and not letting it go?

maybe i should let it go and go own with life and not making my self miserable.

if i continue on like this, i am the only one suffering.

sometimes, i wishes i had someone with me.

someone that really care for me...

every time i get this feeling, i feel suffer...

cause of the pain that i have...

01/12/2009 - 2.58am

maybe after seeing some manga...

i just dont know why...

my heart feels pain all of sudden...

is it i'm thinking too much??

or maybe just that i can't let go of this feeling...

of being happy...

my mind now is total blank...

and i can't think of anything else right now...

i just thinking of someone...

gone drunk...

dam bad shape....

i got drunk in the club...

two graveyard and few shot of vodka...

n i'm KO adi...

but i did have fun...

coz of all the chicks there...

i think i did hug a girl last night and dance with them.

hahahaha

emo..

some of the days... i feel emo...

like today...

even though i was at pangkor island for vacation,

i'm not feeling happy much... i don noe y...

when come back ipoh... whole mind went emo state...

my fren also emo coz of some reason...

and i emo also is coz of something else as well la..

what is the cause that make me felt emo???

what is that feeling???

izit love??? or something else??

wa lao....

wa lao eh...

next month might be going to two places for vacation....

penang and kl....

how le???

seem like going to use quite a lot of cash...

now..

i still half of the bottle i got now...

i think i should slow drink it...

better than nothing... coz i'm working now at night...

helping my fren with his hookah or shisha business at silibin corner..

we just only open for business...

the salary i get isn't much

but it is enough for me to use it...

below is the picture of the stuff.

the flavours

the bottles.

today...

today morning, i don noe y,

i suddenly wanted to drink.

so i called my fren to get me a bottle of vodka for me,

and i got ready the shisha(hookah) bottle beside me.

so, we continue the session from morning till evening.

we went high and everything we could do la...

includes dancing with the clubbing song i on at my desktop.

now i still sober a bit. i puke some of the vodka out coz drank it raw.

i just don noe whether want to say i'm happy or sad.